Prior to my trip to Ghana, I was confident in my faith. I knew that being a whole 24 hours from seeing my parents would be difficult, but I knew I could do it. I was strong enough. And after just a week, I had become quite frazzled by being so inconvenienced by everything that was so incredibly different. Some people say talking to their crush, or going on a rollercoaster is getting out of their comfort zone, and I will be the first to admit that I have done this. But when I was in Ghana, everything that I find comfort in, my friends, my family, my bed, our culture, and even our food, was gone. I was 100 % out of my comfort zone, and then some. So when it I fell ill with probably the worst stomach bug I had ever had in my life, I kept telling myself that I could and would get better, and the more I kept telling myself this, the worse things seemed to get. And at that point, I gave everything to God. I told Him it was in His hands, and that I couldn’t do it, that I wasn’t strong enough.
The next day, I was feeling almost 100% again. I couldn’t believe it. I immediately praised God for His greatness. I learned that day that I am not strong enough, but GOD is.
So many of us live day to day putting the stress on ourselves to be strong, to be confident in ourselves, to make sure we are successful, in whatever way we deem necessary, and only come to be disappointed. In reality, we have no control over what will happen to us. God does. No matter how hard we try or how hard we work, the outcome is always going to be up to God. Just like the oh-so popular Philippians 4:13 says, “I can do all things through Christ, who strengthens me.” I think that sometimes we misunderstand this verse as a whole. As Phil 4:13 says in “The Message” translation, “Whatever I have, wherever I am, I can make it through anything in the One who makes me who I am” and in the “Amplified Bible” translation, “I am self-sufficient in Christ’s sufficiency.” With this in mind, I feel that I can do all things, as long as I make sure it is because of God’s strength and power, and not my own – because God made me who I am, and my sufficiency is nonexistent when it comes to the sufficiency of our God.
After this experience, I have a sense of peace. I am never worried or stressed out more than necessary (college is a tough life, you know ). I know that God is within me, and therefore what ever happens in my life, God is going to provide what is sufficient to get me through it.